{Morii/Fata Organa} Recent Work/What's Going On

It’s been awhile since I’ve posted anything here. Not for a lack of doing art stuff. More because I dislike my Day Job because it has made my TBI worse. Most of the time, I just come straight home and go to sleep. I’ve been in a state of almost constant cognitive fatigue and stress that ended me up in physical therapy for severe pain in my shoulders, upper back, chest, neck, and the base of my skull. I am so tense that the muscles in my shoulders and neck are causing the natural curve forward in my neck bones to straighten and the muscles in my chest are pulling my shoulders forward. My posture while I draw/sculpt wasn’t helping any, but I definitely was stressing out a lot and I carry that like Atlas because I’m a nerd for Ancient Greek mythology.

The only good thing that has come from this (besides the exercises that have helped alleviate the pain quickly) has been seeing a vestibular physical therapist and learning that my eyes and my brain are not communicating properly and haven’t been since the car wreck. I thought the symptoms I was experiencing (feeling like I’m still moving when I’m not, my head feeling like Mysterio’s goat fishbowl head and my eyes just sloshing around in it, walking like a drunk) were all because of the TBI alone and that there wasn’t anything I could do about it, especially almost 5 years later. Turns out, I need classes with special prisms in them to retrain my eyes and brain to work together again. Special Super Nerd Glasses that are going to probably take up all the money I’ve been saving for a down payment on building my house! I’m not exactly thrilled about that part, but the fact that I might be able to go back to regular glasses or not so heavy prism glasses down the line with PT is definitely a plus and a reason to tough it out living with my parents a little while longer.

Speaking of the PT, they are also trying to help me with the numbness in my arms and hands, which would be great for my art productivity! At the moment, though, I just feel incredibly weak and tired after the exercises, but I expect the more I do them, the better my arms and hands will feel. I think a lot of it also has to do with the already stated cognitive fatigue the Day Job has me in.

The Spring 2019 semester started a few weeks ago. I’m taking printmaking and sculpture, which was a bad idea to take together because of the nerve issues. Thinking ahead is not my strongest skill anymore. But I have done a few things that have been pretty fun.

In the printmaking class, we’ve done 3 linocut prints, with the last one being a 3-colour reductive print. In the sculpture class, we’ve dons a wax sculpture that we sent into the school to have cast in bronze, and now we’re working on doing a clay animal skull (I’m doing a bear skull because I didn’t have the money to buy the fake dog skull they school is working off of).

I have also been working on personal work as well, but I’ll do a separate post for those things. Right now, I’m just trying not to completely burn out by doing a full-time Day Job when I know I shouldn’t be because of my disabilities but I have bills to pay and my art isn’t going to do that.